Love you mommy

He is growing up. My little baby is not so little any more. Today I looked back through old videos of his first few months in this world. I relived his first roll, laugh, bite of pablum, and much more. Looking back made me miss those times, for when I could cuddle him in my bed, or keep him amused for hours with a single toy.

I reflected on all this when Bryan went to pick him up from his grandparents. We had just enjoyed a few hours on our own for a nice meal and ended the night looking back. When they came home we went about the nightly normal stuff. A baba and a toothbrush for Evan. The slow unwinding for me and Bryan knowing we made it through another day

All was done. I gave Evan his goodnight kiss and hug. I said night night, and as is normal he said it back. Then I said love you. And my son gave me the best gift

Love you mommy. He leaned in for another hug. My heart swelled. With 3 words my son stole my heart all over again. In the minutes that followed I no longer felt missed the times he was a baby. I missed those 3 words from moments before. I wanted to capture them forever to play again and again. I do not wish to have my little baby back, if I am lucky enough to have those 3 words again tomorrow, I have everything I need.

First hair cut

Evan had it done yesterday. He was very good for the most part other when the buzzer came on, he got scared at that point. He was happy when it was done though, and as a treat we enjoyed some frozen yogurt together.

Work today has been busy, but it’s starting to slow down, for now at least. I don’t know what I will do for the rest of the day if it stays this slow.

A proud mom

Today E took his first steps. He has done a few before, but today was the day it really became a solid thing in my mind. He walked to me to get, of all things, my iPhone. I was able to capture two videos of it as well. I am ovthe moon with pride for my little guy today. It really did make my entire day. 

the cooking expo

We ended up having a blast! It felt like time just flew past, because when we looked at the clock 2 and a half hours had already gone by. We had plenty of samples from cheese to chocolate, coffee and tea, and even some caviar for Bryan. He couldn’t get me to try that no matter how hard he tried. 


The drink selection wasn’t lacking either! I found a ginger beer that I actually like! I found this really good chocolate red wine combination that I enjoyed tonight over some vanilla ice cream. I also had a maple cream drink that was amazing, as well as a really good iced wine!


By the time we arrived back home it was around 10:30 and E was already in bed. We talked with Bryan’s parents and filled them in on all the fun goings on of the night and then headed to bed soon after they left.


I guess they tired little E out because he did not wake up this morning until nearly 10! That gave us just enough time to feed him his breakfast and head out to drop Cici off at the groomers. I wanted to get her smelling nice before we head back to work. That has been changed to Tuesday so I have a bit of a extended weekend!


When she was getting all clean we went for coffee with his parents. It was so nice out today that we wanted to spend most or as much of it as we could outdoors. We walked home from the coffee shop a hour or so later and then picked up the dog. E napped so it gave Bryan a opportunity to do some much needed grocery shopping! We joined in for the second half of the trip that consisted of picking up meat and some of the above mentioned alcohol.


The rest of the night was spent enjoying the out doors with a family BBQ. The time just flew past and before we knew it it was time for E to have his bed time bottle! Speaking of E, I forgot to say that he has officially started furniture walking! Of course it was because he wanted daddy’s iPhone but whatever gets him to walk on his own is good enough for me! It’s a good thing I decided to order some bumble bells for him, I think we will be needing them very soon!

Bringing back date night

After a bunch of rough days and a lot of thinking me and B have decided to try to liven things up a bit by trying to set aside a night a week just for us. We were doing this for a while when E was first born, but as most things do when you have a child it was pushed to the side. We would always do a dinner and a movie type of deal so I think always doing the same thing all the time made it rather tedious as well.


Tonight we were planning to go to the Lady Gaga concert but she caught bronchitis and it has been moved until August 9th. Seeing as we already had made arrangements for E to be looked after tonight though we decided to do something anyways, and it’s not dinner and a movie! 


We are going to take the bus and sky train to Vancouver and go to a cooking expo at BC Place. Don’t let the title make it sound duller then it is though. Apparently there will be a bunch of food to sample, and a bunch of wine to drink as well. I think there should be shopping and some demonstrations as well. 


All in all though it sounds like it will be a fun night, and it really has been a long time sense me and B got out for a extended period just the two of us. With going back to work on Monday I want to make the most out of this last weekend.

How quickly a year passes

It feels like yesterday when we came home with a little baby boy! Now he is growing up so fast before my eyes and I can’t keep up with how quickly the months pass. Next Thursday, May 22 will be his first birthday! Soon after that I will be going back to work for a few days a week, and the days will continue to pass.


I remember when I was saying, “oh it will be so cool when he can sit up!” Then he was, and it wasn’t long before that turned in to just a daily activity that we let go by with out a blink or second thought. The things we were so impressed with at first, like him holding his bottle on his own, or him shaking a rattle become every day actions that hardly get a second look.


It’s the lack of looking at the little things that all of a sudden catches up to you, and you find yourself wishing that you would have paid it more mind in the midst of the cranky periods and the sleepless nights. When you stop for just a second to realize this, a year has gone by and all those little firsts are no longer firsts any more. Now you are moving on a new first, the first birthday!!


I wanted to do something small for Evan’s first birthday, but by the time I invited all his friends and my family the guest list soon grew to around 26 people! It’s funny how things never go how you plan for them to. From his birth, to his birthday things always end up totally different from how you expected them to be.


We decided to go with a sesame street theme. Evan does;t really watch much tv or anything, but I thought the characters are really cute, so why not? My friend is helping me with the cupcakes and we ordered a bunch of party supplies like plates and banners and stuff like that. 


I wanted originally to make a bunch of themed style food, but with the huge amount of people that are going to be there, it was just to much work. I am going to do a bunch of food, but not put so much attention in to detail on the presentation, after all, he is only going to be 1 and will look back on his birthday on the many photos and videos I am sure that will be taken.


I am excited for next Thursday to get here and at the same time I wish it would take it’s time. My little boy is growing up so fast! 

A relaxing family weekend

We spent it up at the lake with my husbands parents. We did a ton of walking and were e outside a lot. Evan got a toy bunny from grandma for Easter and he loves it! I didn’t get him anything this year as he is to young for much of anything.

At this point my focus is on figuring out what I am going to do for his birthday! I can’t believe he will be 1 on May 22!! Time has gone way to fast! I know I am going to make him a monkey cake, but at this point that’s my only idea.

I plan to try and update more once I get a Bluetooth keyboard for my phone. Typing on here is a test of my patience!

A nice week

The sun has been out for most of it, so I took the time to enjoy it. I groomed my guide dog in the back yard when Evan played in his jumper outside, I went for a few walks, and to the park a few times.

Today was the first time I walked to the park on my own with just Evan and his stroller. It’s not possible to use a guide dog and a stroller, so it was a bit interesting going out on my own. I hung my cane off the front of the stroller so people would see it just so they would know I am blind.

I do have quite a lot of useable vision in my left yes so the hesitation is never if I will be able to see enough. I just want people around me to know, now more so with the baby.

The trip to the park was fun though. Every time we go to leave Evan always puts up a huge fuss though. When he is all settled in his stroller he settles down fast enough thankfully.

This weekend should see just as much sun so I am looking forward to it. More walks in the sun to the park I think 🙂 We are also getting Easter pictures done. I am looking forward to a new family photo. Continue reading

Land of Confusion

Most people probably make the assumption that for me as a blind student meant making it through high school would take a extra year. Getting all the classroom materials in to a accessible format in order for me to use them was often a frustrating task in itself.

Thinking back on it its surprising to me that I handled it so well. Most teachers were so unorganized that we would often be scrambling the day before to get lesson materials ready for the next day, only receiving them fr the teacher that afternoon.

I was able to make it through high school in the same amount of time as all the other students, no extra year required. Regardless though, no subject made me more stressed out then math.

I could understand it up to a point, but I still have vivid memories of me and my teacher going over it for hours after school. Try looking at a diagram of a shape, a complicated one with multiple angles and heights. Now how would that work if you couldn’t see the diagram?

In Braille math books they would raise the lines of those diagrams on the paper, and stick the measurements in Braille wherever they would fit. The end result was a bunch of clutter that was hard to make much out of.

I remember my teacher would physically make the shapes for me from construction paper, and stick the Braille measurements to the actual sides of the now truly 3d shape. It was because of all her efforts that I made it through math. Countless hours and lots of frustration later but I made it through!

Daily Prompt: Born to Be With you

Taking the plunge in to online dating can lead to a lot of attention. When I joined plenty of fish over 6 years ago it was a joke. I wasn’t looking for anyone, and I didn’t have any expectations.

When I first met Bryan there was no instant attraction, no fireworks, and absolutely no long term relationship thoughts. We were 2 people meeting for coffee, and we could not be any more different!

I am a very blunt person, always first to speak up. Bryan at the time, was very shy, quiet, and reserved. I thrive in social gatherings and spent many a night hanging out with my friends. Bryan likes to watch mind rotting reality tv!!

One coffee led to hours of conversation, that les to living common law, that led to buying a house. We got married! Sold and purchased another house, and made a baby!

He calms me down, I bring him out of his shell. He makes me laugh and listens to everything I say, i give him all of me. We gave each other a child, and the vow to spend our life’s together. Funny how you find love when your not looking